Maybe you were sitting there at home, or in a restaurant, thinking about something in your ordinary life – and suddenly, many things sort of congeal in your mind and momentarily light up for you in your head, about this life creation stuff.
And you might have wanted to “change the subject” in your head – like real quick – because you finally realized that you are responsible.
It really is up to you to stop investing in that part of you that wants to know the answers as to why you never quite “got that life” that you see others with.
More specifically, it’s about wanting to know the reason why you were short-shrifted and wanting to “talk with” that reason, whatever
it is, to maybe yell at it.
And in this window of clarity, or clearness, this knowing was so palpable that you realized that the real challenge is simply letting go of the old self that wants people to feel sorry for It. Remember, creation just reflects what you are wholesomely assuming to be true. (a Neville-ism).
I call that other self, an It, because to me it’s just a fraud. It wants to be recognized as someone who just never quite got its way. In order for us to receive the key to that new house, to run into the perfect mate, and the favorite dog, this It would have to literally die.
And it’s tempting to listen to its reasons for you remaining in the safe, but limiting reality.
I don’t know if you’ve ever went to Summer Camp, or went on some sort of week or month long expedition with people whose company you know you’ll have to depart from eventually. During that time, you grew very close to them.
Imagine, now, that you in particular had to leave early to return home, while everyone else stayed. It’s not possible to even imagine not getting a chance to say goodbye to them, to listen to their departing words, and finding out what they think of you leaving, and their reaction to you leaving.
Look at these made-up, soon-to-be-separated-from, people, as the versions of the real people in your life, who currently know you as someone who has always experienced lack in your life.
Where am I going with this? The decision to begin living in the consciousness as someone who is living that ideal life, and truly living from that feeling, will put an end to that part of your relationship with these people.
The importance of this is: If you are someone who thrives on having others think of you as wanting, and striving, and lacking, you will now, through assuming the feeling that your ideal circumstances were present, depart this “lack-boat” abruptly, with no soothing words from anyone. You won’t find out why you were “left out”, because you are now someone who Has the consciousness of Having, which material reality has to reflect very soon.
No pity-party for you — and this pity-receiving stuff, is something that people love to want, and expect, for not “getting that life they want”. It’s the victimized person inside many of us.
When you take Conscious Creation seriously enough, to listen to your intuition that tells you to leave behind the cute manifesting techniques you see in various books, and take on the identity of the fulfilled Self – without looking back – you
are permanently leaving the victimized self behind. I’m talking about that self (the It )that wanted to know why it was left behind in life, when the reason – really – for lack, was that it created its own circumstances by feeling left behind, and by looking for answers for not-getting.
It’s not a matter of visualizing the right way, or of learning how to “detach” in just that right way that you might have read about.
It’s just being willing to Be That Identity that has a successful business, or a great relationship. You get what you are, not what you want.
Here’s a quote by a woman who wrote an out-of-print book, based on her experience with reading Neville Goddard’s work:
If your dominant thoughts patterns consist of:
– The positive –
Feelings: Feeling the warmth of your new mate’s hand in yours, at the movies.
Actions: Keeping your home clean because you know that you have “special company” tonight. And doing other things, as well, on Saturday night that you would be doing if you knew had company. ( instead of doing your ritual DVD rental, because you’re preparing for being dateless .. this is an action that is based on the particular version of you that doesn’t have companionship)
– and some negative –
then comes the underlying beliefs/ defenses/ fears: “If I have a partner/spouse, I will not have freedom with time that I currently now enjoy without someone, and will thus suffer. Or I will have to worry about being cheated on. Or if I’m in a relationship, and during those particular times where I am not getting the good stuff (sex, affection, a movie partner, whatever else), I’ll actually have to give back to this person, and well.. I’m not ready to give for the sake of giving.”
If that last part fits you, you have underlying “pay-offs”. This is enough to create circumstances where nothing lasting happens. (You might actually end up meeting someone, but you do or say something to completely blow it with the person, or the person just senses something in you and you don’t hear from them after 2 or 3 dates.)
To reveal your unconscious payoffs, it’s pretty simple. There’s one phrase that was part of this course I purchased years back, called The Field Center.
And the creator of this course largely parroted concepts from Neville, Abe Hicks, etc. But they had a question they pose to you, to uncover an unconscous fear of manifesting an objective that your conscious mind thinks it wants:
What bad thing happens if you do get <blank> ?
And it’s a question that you need to answer very quickly without analyzing, or thinking about it. Just uncovering one fear that was previously unconscious can trigger major stuff to move into the 3rd dimension.